Amber

20 Some of the Pharisees asked Jesus, “When will the kingdom of God come?”

Jesus answered, “God’s kingdom is coming, but not in a way that you will be able to see with your eyes. 21 People will not say, ‘Look, here it is!’ or, ‘There it is!’ because God’s kingdom is within you.”

Luke 17 (NCV)


I wrote this song in 2012 and revisited it last year to add some spontaneous worship. I recorded this video about 5 months ago.

(I often sit on things for long periods at a time if that’s not yet abundantly clear).

One of my favorite things about shooting this video was collaborating with nature and getting to see some lovely miracles. Toward the end of the video (around minute 4), I was singing, “dancing in deep amber joy floating in the atmosphere” when a yellow dragonfly floated down and joined me. I had never seen a yellow dragonfly before. It was absolutely beautiful. I smiled at it as it floated down past me.

The whole theme of the song is yellow light and joy, which is why I shot this outside and used a lot of yellow elements (and why I was particularly happy that nature joined in a dance with me). Thanks, yellow dragonfly; you were a happy addition to my day. Thank you, all other dragonflies that graced me with your presence. Thank you majestic birds for making an appearance in the background unbeknownst to me. And thank you beautiful blue skies and sunlight for being my heavenly gifts every day. (Lyrics are below.)

Let’s go to heaven

Let’s go to light

Let’s gaze in Jesus’ face, feel His smile

Let’s dance in deep amber joy floating in the atmosphere

It’s all right here*

oo oo oo oo oo*

Let’s break the floodgates of heaven open wide

Let’s show this earth what Jesus’ face is like

Let’s dance in deep amber freedom floating in the atmosphere

It’s all right here*

oo oo oo oo oo*

Like a light shining in the dark, I see you*

Like a fire shut up in my bones, I feel you*

And you are inescapable

Greet me with a heavenly kiss*

Put Your word upon my lips*

To fill all my spaces, occupy me*

You are inexplicable

Greet me with a heavenly kiss*

Put Your word upon my lips*

To fill all my spaces, occupy me*

(everything else was spontaneous)

The book and the God

I have much more to say to you, but right now it would be more than you could understand.  The Spirit shows what is true and will come and guide you into the full truth. The Spirit doesn’t speak on his own. He will tell you only what he has heard from me, and he will let you know what is going to happen. The Spirit will bring glory to me by taking my message and telling it to you.

-Jesus

See John 16: 12-14, CEV

(The amplified version is amazing too)

I was having a conversation with a friend one time when he asked, “What if there were no bible, Buki?”

What if I lived in a world where there was no bible? Then it dawned on me that I didn’t have to imagine too deeply because once upon a time, the bible didn’t exist. So I said, “I guess if God is who He says He is, then He would come down and reveal Himself to us…” (which is really what the bible is an account of)

Peace broke in the room. It was tangible.

Imagine something with me. Say, Claire stumbles across my blog and decides, “I’m digging this! I want faith like Buki.” (Hang with me before you conclude that I’m a crazy narcissist) So Claire takes my 15 posts on thesecondbreakdown.wordpress.com and turns it into “the Book of Buki.” She then starts a religion based on just those writings, using me as her excuse for/against her actions and beliefs. She creates a theology about how God takes the form of a child because of my one post, “He’s like a kid” and anyone in the congregation that tries to compare Him to a lover or a fighter is branded a heretic because, “that is not in the book of Buki!”

How do you think I would respond?

The posts you see are just snapshots of my many encounters with God and the many experiences I have had with the Holy Spirit. This blog is not the full description of my faith; an ever-evolving relationship with God is the full description. To someone interested in my faith, I wouldn’t say, “Read my blog.” I would say, “Talk with God. Walk with Him…”

So! The primary thing is the connection with God; the by-product is the book.

Abraham did not have a book but he had a connection with God. Moses did not have a book but he had a relationship with God.

I think Christians today are a bit handicapped. We worship the book. We reference the book ABOVE the walk with God and I think it is because many of us are devoid of Holy Spirit power. I get that we don’t want to wander off into heresy and it is good to rely on the testimonies of those that came before us but to say that they have written an exhaustive narration of the faith would be false and, honestly, impossible for a faith that purports to worship an inexhaustible God. We say our God is infinite, that His ways are too high to completely comprehend so why do we say the bible has said all that needs to be said?

Jesus said, “What is God’s kingdom like? What can I compare it with? It is like what happens when someone plants a mustard seed in a garden. The seed grows as big as a tree, and birds nest in its branches.”

Luke 13:18-19, CEV

It’s bigger, y’all. Do you realize how much we have limited Him in our minds?

If the God I worship is who I say He is, then He is God whether I have a bible in my hands or not. He can reach me on a mountain or in a church.

If He is who He says He is, then the God who spoke to Joseph in a dream and found Moses in a burning bush is still alive today. His Spirit is not dependent on a physical building, a book, specific songs or any of the other constructs we use to make Him portable.

If God wants to appear in a massive vision to a guy who has never held a bible in his hands, then God will do so because God can do whatever God wants.

Jesus said to her: Believe me, the time is coming when you won’t worship the Father either on this mountain or in Jerusalem. But a time is coming, and it is already here! Even now the true worshipers are being led by the Spirit to worship the Father according to the truth. These are the ones the Father is seeking to worship him. God is Spirit, and those who worship God must be led by the Spirit to worship him according to the truth.

John 4:21, 23-24, CEV

I want y’all to recognize that the greatest icons of our faith did not have a bible but you do. Think about it. No seriously… spend a few years pondering how that has affected you. Probably one of the most liberating things I realized was,

The bible is not the only way God can speak to me.

Here in Ilawe, it is a compliment to say, “Your daughter is more beautiful than you are” because the hope is that your posterity will pick up where you left off and go on to do greater things. The bible is beautiful. It teaches us magnificent things but let us not be content to allow our search for God stop there. The finite experiences of the people of the bible should start us off but let us go on to have our own amazing experiences with God – experiences worth writing about.

Jesus did many other things. If they were all written in books, I don’t suppose there would be room enough in the whole world for all the books.

John 21:25, CEV